Well I guess I do need support. But I have pretty much decided that this is over, this relationship is destroying me. I have so much work to do to prepare and plan for a new future, and I'm probably looking at poverty realistically. But poverty would be better than insanity. The mood swings and blame are just more than I can take anymore.
When I very first came to this board I said I felt like I had to choose between the lesser of two evils, and unfortunately, after 9 months I still feel the same way. Any attempt to communicate with this man has resulted in getting worse abuse from him.
I stand to lose quite a bit...all the things that have been what kept me hanging in there. Don't see any other option at this point.
