And the piece de resistance of mind f*ckery is...H just told me that he thought I had changed but clearly I hadn't because I am doing the same sh*t I used to do...I had called him and expressed my aggravation with the situation and that I have no way to pay these bills.
Yes, I was bitchy and whiny and naggy and blah blah blah. Ultimately I apologized for going off on him but I want him to try to understand the position I am in and have been for a long time...anyway, this is pathetic. I'm continually trying to get him to understand and I don't know why.
I have to move into the present and stick to the bottom line.
The T that I last spoke with said that my filing would be another narcissistic injury and that maybe I should discuss it with him first...I need to have the emotional support to do this and to figure out how.
And, I need to STOP trying to get him to get it. And, stop being a miserable person just to show him what he's doing...
