I'd probably be moved to tears if I could even just hold his hand.
Yeah, I know. I haven't touched my W since the bomb, and it is very hard not to want to reach out and hug her. I'm the touchy-feely type and really need that from her and to be allowed to give her that. But, I have larger goals, and so the touchy-feely stuff just has to wait.
It is tough, but the prize is worth the wait. As you will learn from reading DB/DR, you need to GAL (get a life by doing things you have always wanted to do or that you enjoy doing). You also have to adopt a new mindset (the books cover this much more than I can in a post). Basically, you have to come to grips with the fact that you cannot control what your H does/says. All you can do is control you. So, with DB'ing, you set about on a path of changing you for the better. Otherwise, your chances of luring your H back are not very good.
A lot of this, and what the books say, seems counter-intuitive, but it is necessary.
Also, at least for me, I have re-connected my religion - that was something that has been missing. If you are so inclined, I suggest prayer. It has done wonders for me. Daily, I pray for patience, peace, patience, wisdom, patience, strength, and patience. You get the idea.
