Fallgirl, looked at your thread. Yes, definite similarities! Cat has been great at giving advice and putting things in a clear light. I feel the same way as you - have made a good deal of improvements on myself and feel great about those and for the most part am at least reasonably happy but there is always that lurking "fear" that he won't come out of this. But really what can I do about that? Nothing. Just have to keep being me.
Cat, nothing in particular happened new. Just me having a hard time with a particular alien issue that I am having a hard time detaching from and accepting. Seriously, it is so juvenile. Anyway, it always seems when I am really questioning what the heck I am holding on for I get a "reason." Last night H did something for me that was selfless - vintage H and it has been a looooong time (probably months) since he really thought of me over anyone (esp himself). So I guess that is why. I do believe he is in there somewhere.
I hope you didn't mind me asking about your H's spirituality. It is just that it was such a big part of my H's identity and past that I feel like it is a big part of what he needs to deal with in order to come out of all of this and "recover" fully and become whole. It is interesting how my prayers have changed from asking God to make him change his mind to basically just praying for H to find what he is looking for and be healed and whole again. Ultimately that is the most important thing.
