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[iwantittowork]

I forgot to add, that later on Saturday, after d8 and I came back to house, I was going to take my d8 out for dinner, W was sitting on the couch so I told her she was welcome to come with us if she wanted.

She first said, "I don't know" and then went back into trying to defend herself about the previous earlier discussion about her saying I should take d8 swimming. I told her again, that I was just expressing how I felt out that, and that I was not accusing her of any wrongdoing, or anything, and that now that I had expressed that I had moved on from it, and that she was still welcome to come.

She came to dinner with us, and we had a couple laughs and a nice dinner, then bought d8 ice cream for desert. At times my W seemed distant during dinner, but we laughed together at some things d8 had said and was doing during dinner.

On the way back to the car we each held one of our d8's hands. After putting d8 to sleep, we both watched tv in the same room for a bit, then W announced she was tired and going to bed, and also said 'good night' to me, so I wished her good night as well.

I need to keep thinking of those little things as positives, regardless of what they mean, I look back to them now, and am happy she was even sitting in same room with me.