Has anyone seen my get-up-and-go?

[mishka422]

Do I still count as suicidal if I've decided not to actually kill myself, but I hope to be in a fatal accident or get a quick and painless terminal disease?

I understand that thought far too well. I've spent far too many hours contemplating how to die without actually killing myself. It's really hard to get out of that mindset and honestly Dawn, the only reason I ever do is because of my son. He's my only reason for living. You have to find one thing you are passionate about and grab it with both hands. Throw your entire being into it.

How do you go about that? By taking yourself out of your comfort zone and repeating that action over and over until something clicks.

You love animals. I know it's very easy to get attached to them and want to adopt all of them. Is there a 'no kill' shelter near you? You said there is a small private shelter so I assume they are probably a no kill. If so, is it so bad that you can't bring them home? You can still be their friend, love and care for them but leave them there afterward. It's not so much their surroundings as it is their interaction that makes them healthy and happy.