I do realize that. This whole thing is making me feel sick. I want out and that makes me feel like the bad guy. It would awfully embarrassing to explain to people why we're getting divorced because to a lot of people, this looks like a good marriage. And just like for everybody else here, this is going to cause a lot of pain and I'm the one pulling the trigger. It' seems like a lose-lose situation for me- damned if I do, damned if I don't.
