I Need Help Now Please!!

[beepee]

Thanks so much for all your advice everyone. i really appreciate it and i feel so much better now.

almostdone:
thanks so much for sharing your story and email, it gives me GREAT hope to read that. im so happy for you that you have reached that point! it is very inspiring to say the least.

we have emailed back and forth after the email i received from him and i feel a lot better. i told him i understood how he felt and i know he needs space and i do too. he still insists that we are not getting back together but he says that he still wants me in his life and wants to be best friends, when time allows. i said i wanted that too and i told him that i didnt think us getting a divorce was the best thing but understood that i cant do anything if he really wants it. i told him that i still have hope that we can work out, i dont know if that was the best thing to say but that is how i feel. our emails ended in a positive note, he told me more about his life in these emails than he ever did since he left. even a bit of joking.

im glad the emails were positive, even tho he says he cant be with me anymore, they were still positive happy emails.
i just need to be really patient. REALLY PATIENT. im gonna continue to have hope, i have nothing to lose by trying to make this work and i will be so happy with myself that i poured out my heart and soul into this, i wont have any regrets.

thank you all again for your support and advice.