Enforcing a no recreational sex boundary lately has resulted in an angry husband and a resulting bad case of nerves for me, waiting for the proverbial shoe to drop. I’m not sure how long I can keep it up. (That’s how I agreed originally- short version: the pressure was relentless and I was in state of desperation to save my marriage). So if walking away is not an option (because that selfish), that leaves me with eventually “taking one for the team”. I can fake it and smile, maybe in a few more years I’ll actually start believing the stuff he says.
Again, I’m know this note was p!$$y and I’m sorry. Any suggestions as to where I go from here? I hate where I’m at now… Last night we started talking about maybe separating, maybe trying a MC, but prospects look grim.
Holy Crap is right!
Spybunny - correct me if I'm wrong but are you asking if you left H, are you the WAS, therefore selfish?
Seriously?
I almost couldn't believe what I was reading. You want to remain faithful and committed to your H, even to the point that you have done things that many would never dream of doing to try to save a M. IMO, you are the last person I'd ever call selfish. Trapped, manipulated, used...sorry to be blunt but I think those words are more accurate.
You need to look out for YOU. It's pretty apparent your H does not have your best interest in mind. Do not degrade yourself for H, if that is how you feel about swinging. It's like selling your soul to the devil.
IMHO I think you are on the right track with the MC or a separation or both. I know we are all here to save our Ms but in your case, I'm more worried about saving YOU than your M.
Do you have children?
Me: 39 H: 39 S: 15 M: 18 years Bomb: 6/3/09 H moved out: 10/15/09 H moved back:5/30/10
