I really don't think it's a big deal that you emailed. This so not about him anyway. Just move forward. It almost seems like you are rebelling just because you aren't "supposed to email"...so fine, email, get it out and move on. Don't waste energy feeling bad about it, just get back to you now.
IC sounds good.
We all have bad days. Per SP, "embrace the suck" and tomorrow's a new day. I have a book on it's way I'm excited about. I'll let you know if it is any good. It is called "Get out of your mind and into your life"...
