I Need Help Now Please!!

[beepee]

Hi everyone:

i just got an email from my H and i dont know how to respond to it. its making me really sad. heres the email:

B,
I'm not happy, this is not what I wanted, but it's for the best,
you know I did what I did to survive, and it became what I wanted.
I've always said you'll see me again, of course, and we'll talk, of course.
The fact that I can't see you yet, isn't a sign that I don't want to see you
or that it makes me happy, it's about survival, and what's needed to live
and breathe.
Believe me B, I'm really sad too, and it's not easy for me to move on in the
way you might think. I'm not living a high life, going out every night and having
fun, far from it.
I'm trying my best to catch up with sleep, to rest and relax, to get work and see
if I can stay in this country and work, to pay bills and survive. I don't know what's going to happen in the next while, if I'll even be allowed to stay, but there's little I can do about that.
I'm not enjoying these days, and not doing everything I've always wanted, and the life I'm living is a sad one, marred with disappointment and melancholy.
I'll file as soon as I get the money, there's so many bills to pay that I don't know when I can, but I'll let you know. I'm sorry that I have to, but I will let you know.
I took you off Francis and Freddie's page, myspace I assume, because I thought
it was best that we only contact through gmail. If there's a girl on there it's probably a friend of *** who's a DJ, I don't even know her. So, again, don't read into it.
I hope you still have someone to talk to, someone who can help you put your
thoughts together and make sense of the past.
I'm finding it hard to stay awake most days now, I'm feeling pretty sad and very lonely, but I'm doing my best, and even if I'm not allowed stay here after Aug 31st, I'm gonna try and make it, 'cos I know that's what you'd want, and I'd want nothing more than for you to find contentment within yourself, that's my dream, without me, just within yourself,
that's my dream, my hope.
I miss you too B, and there's not a day that goes by where I don't think of you.
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i feel like theres no hope..its really want he wants
i dont know what to say, i dont know what to do..
someone please help.