I was reading through your post again. I have the conviction, whether it is well-founded or not, that she is not still sorting out her baggage. I think that she has been doing that for the last two years, and that she arrived at her decision to end the marriage, not as a rash decision, but through a long and agonizing process for her. She has been going through menopause, and she has been suffering from Irritable Bowel Syndrome (so the doctor thought) and periodic migraines. I think that the physcial probekms were partially induced by stress. The stress was caused by her sense of feeling trapped in an unloving relationship, where she felt that she was being taken for granted, and she was torn by her desire to get out.
Despite the fact that I want to reconcile, I think that she is probably gone for good. Although I would like to patch it up, I do not think that she has any desire to do so.
I have had very little contaact with her in the past two months. I have tried to do all the "right" things as far as avoiding pursuing behavior, but...
In the one or two times that I have actually seen her in the last two months (very briefly), she has told me that she is doing well as long as she does not have to deal with me.
If she is "thinking things over," I'd be shocked. It appears as if she has thought things over, made her decision, and chosen to stay on the path to divorce.
I need to stop hoping for the miracle and learn to move on somehow. At 57 years old, it is tough to contemplate.
M 57 W 52 Married 12, Together 14 No kids by this marriage 2nd marriage for both
