Dawn, This just aint right!!! I was saddened to read your thoughts and realising how lonely and depressed you feel. I am no expert and certainly cant give any advice that would bring the change for you but I can tell you this: you matter and your life matters and you can make it a good one. I dont care if your H is a jerk, is going thru MLC, is cheating or whatever else, YOU are responsible for your life. Depression as I understand is a hard thing to deal with but do not surrender to it. You are healthy, you are young and you can affect so many people around you. You said you are afraid of kids? Well, I was too, I was difficult to connect with kids before having my own, and I think volunteering with kids would be a great idea. It will be so rewarding I am sure, it will get you back to enjoying life's simple joys that us grown ups forget to.
You have to find a way to start your meds again. You are not alone. K
Have you read a small book called "5 persons you meet in heaven"?, google it, find it and read it.
