Kicking back with a glass of wine and reflecting on things(another 180 for me-before this I would have jumped down H`s throat without engaging my brain prior to action).
H overnighted last night-sent a text to say so, which is a change for him. Hasn`t turned up or texted since so I can only hope he`s still with his brothers.
And if he`s not, so what? Me losing my marbles will just make things worse. If he`s in an A he`s not waving it in my face so that must mean that he`s not prepared to lose me either. Anyway confronting him is just going to drive it further underground and push him away in the process. Far better if he doesn`t realise how suspicious I am.
I kept busy all day. Took the kids to church, and off to a new playground after, cooked a great lunch for us all, then mowed the lawn(my workout for the day!).
We`re going to watch a DVD shortly and I`ll whip around and get things tidied up before H gets back.
I`m dressed to the nines, as I`d promised myself, with new wedges I know H will love and nicely co ordinated outfit. Gotta lay off the crisps(chips) now though as I don`t want to let those changes slide either.
Having H`s family around this weekend reminded me of how much I`ll miss them if we break up. They`re great fun and I`d hate to be on the periphery of that. I even almost miss MIL!
Oh dear! Here I go again-wanting to stay married one minute and determined to kick him out the next.
