I want my Monkey and Sheep Back

[beepee]

aliveandkicking:
thanks for that, i can definitely understand and see your point. dont get me wrong, i appreciate my position and know that not having kids allows me to fully work on myself without having to worry about anyone else but i just still feel like because there are no kids involved, he's less inclined to be in touch with me which is the case now. but i understand what you're saying and i appreciate it.

i want so much to turn my life around and im really trying as much is humanly possible for me. im busting my a$$ trying to get a job and get out of this living situation i am in because it is not helping me. its just not happening as soon as id like and i know i just have to be more patient, i know itll happen soon, i have faith in myself that i can make it happen.

its just really tough not being in contact with him at all. i dont know, maybe its easier to GAL and move on this way than it is if we were in contact. i dont know. i havent been able to experience what it would be like the other way around. but this is the way it is now and i have to learn to deal and cope with it.