Hi T, Al, Kerry, mish and all, the weekend with H is finished now. He is gone to work . I am planning to take the kids out to play in a while, so my weekend is still going
We had a pretty eventless weekend. Spent the evening last night at a friends of my son's house. His dad was my first flirt when I was...12-13 I think. Funny how life is. Now our sons are best friends... Anyway we spent the evening with them and they invited us to grill together sometime. The last couple of years we had no "new friends". This couple seems very nice. They brought up stories about divorced friends of theirs and H got a little uncomfortable hearing how the kids suffered but we both managed to look calm and cool.
This morning I went and sat on his lap (not by accident, on purpose) and my son walked in and smiled and said "do you realise you are holding each other?". That made me feel prisoned. The more this sitch continues the harder it will be for the kids to understand. I am surprised how they havent asked why H isnt coming back home.
At night I hugged him and snuggled close to him a few times (again no accident). He kept on his side and just grabbed my arm across his chest. I really dont understand the lack of physical connection.
This morning he cleaned up the kids room, their toys. We gathered so many huge bags we gave away and threw away they now have space in their room again
All and all a happy family weekend again. Which is far from what I crave. Looking forward to getting away. It's been very hot here. K
