I want my Monkey and Sheep Back

[beepee]

i woke up this morning feeling really angry.
frustrated, sad, p*ssed off, all the negative emotions one could feel just flooded me when i woke up and i was ONE SECOND away from sending this email to him. i NEARLY pressed the send button and i stopped myself in time because i thought of this board. i thought of how you guys would be so dissapointed, i thought about how sending it wouldnt make a difference to him, i thought about how sending it wouldnt make the situation any better, and i thought about how i would make myself crazy waiting for a reply that would probably never come. i'm still tempted to send it, the urge is very very very very strong at the moment. but i am posting it here and im going to walk away from the computer for awhile and try to get myself together..

D,

I'm sure you know this but i just want
you to know that it really really hurt me
that you would take me off their page and
leave some other girl on there as if she's
more deserving of them. im sure you know
it would hurt me and thats probably why you
did it. i dont understand it at all,
Dave and David was mine too,
I named them and you took them
away from me as if I was this cruel
horrible person. i dont know why
you have decided to treat me this way
and turn on me when you said that
im your best friend. i never ever thought
you had any of this in you, i never
knew you could act this way. i never
knew you could treat anyone the way
you're treating me.

im sorry that i said i didnt want to see you
anymore and that i couldnt be friends with
you, i didnt mean it. i want nothing more
than to have you as my best friend but
i know thats not a possibility anymore.
if you ever decide that im worth your time,
i would love to hear from you.

B