Let me put it to you this way. You say you've been "DB-ing" for three years. Yet that's not what I'm hearing. I'm hearing someone who is still pursuing his W endlessly. She's sick of it and sick of you. That's the hard truth.
The fact that you are actually begging for sex is amazing. I'm surprised she actually gives it to you. But then again, she complains about it. And what do you do when she complains? You ask her again expecting things to be different.
Step one. Leave her alone. Stop with the pressure.
I'm assuming she still has the OM. Well then go for an in-house separation or tell her to stay with the OM. Do you really want this toxic person in your home?
You want to know how it's going to raise your respect level? It's because it's going to show her that you are a MAN. A MAN who is not doing it because he is an @$$ but because you are saving your family and your kids from HER destructive patterns.
Your description of her shows her actually sneering down at you. Belittling you. My God you don't even show respect for yourself. Once you get back your self-respect, you are going to show off your confidence and attractiveness. Right now you are the whiny puppy dog begging for attention. Take that control back from her. Do what you need to do to stay healthy alone. You did it when you were single. You can do it again.
And besides, do you really want to have sex with her while she's with the OM?
Just a 2x4.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
