Hello Kittyfish & Sandi2!

[BigJohn]

Why would your C think you should share what you've posted? Not that you've said anything you shouldn't, but seems like that would be like letting her read your tool book....DR.

I think my C was thinking that by reading my posts my W would also be exposed to the feedback I am getting from you and others and that maybe that would pique my W's curiosity further.

I know your patience must be getting weary. My heart went out for another poster today who was really having a hard time over the WAS. I know that your W is not happy.....she only tries to make herself think she "will" be happier. Don't give up. If my feelings can change, so can your W's.

I have to admit I have my moments. It is not in my nature to take crap from ANYONE for a second yet I've taken the worse abuse of my life from my W for the last 4 1/2 months since discovery of her EA and I'm still hanging tough. Still thinking about the likely impending escalation to a PA in two weeks and how I'm going to deal with that.

It's becoming abundantly clear that my W must crash and burn- and merrily take down the kids and I in the process- in order to learn her lesson about OM and her associated fantasy. It kills me to no end how little I can do to stop her from continuing inflicting the damage she is doing to us and our family. I resent it to the point where I sometimes wonder if I might be happier WITHOUT HER- before I realize that I'm just falling into the same trap she is in now. Perseverance is the key. I've got to keep the focus on me and the kids. She will either come around soon enough to help me turn our sitch around, or she won't... in which case she'll eventually bite the dust sometime down the road with OM. How I wish I could post OM picture for everyone to see- a picture of my W's OM really is like a thousand words. Maybe in his case two thousand words. Either way, life will go on and I will succeed with my kids in tow.