Trying to cope with H, IA/EA (was Newbie-1st post)

[hoosiermama]

Maybe she did win...again. I can't keep doing this. Honestly, I don't know how anyone does this.

I'm hysterical here. I want to throw things...I want to scream...I want, you know what, I don't know what the he11 I want. What am I fighting for anyway?

I don't know anymore...

then do it. scream, throw things. punch pillows. get it out. have a big old cathartic cry. whatever works for you. that's how we do this--we get it out of ourselves where it can do damage and we gain perspective. it feels more powerful than it is--once you start, you WILL be able to stop screaming, throwing things, punching things. I promise. been there, done that.