no, you're sooo not a fool. you're in pain is all.

your questions have no good answers, and they're the ones we've all asked ourselves. in the beginning I chose to look at it as some kind of non-officially-categorized addendum to the DSM-IV, a syndrome of being out of touch with reality. because truly, that's what it is. it helped me not personalize it, so if that's helpful to you it's yours. brain chemicals flowing freely, leading to psychosis. generally temporary.

don't take it out on you or your life. it's not about you. tragically, it affects you in a horrible way, but it's not about you at all. remember that.


M60
H52
D20
M14 yrs
OW-old gf from 1986
bomb-5/18/08
H filed for D-9/10/08
D final 4/24/09
xH remarried (not OW) 2012