Hi V, Sounds like you've reached one of those life-changing moments - or phases...or periods...or insights...not sure how you would want to describe it - since I guess it could come down to how you receive this kind of awareness about yourself. It could be the type of awareness that results in immediate, constant change, it could be the type of awareness that needs to be nurtured - and kept alive for it to remain relevant...only time will tell I suppose.
One thing that seems very clear - is that your tears are of the healthiest sort - that they're allowing you to cleanse something somehow - and the trick, then, may be to not try to catch all those tears and not try to find your reflection in the reflecting pool they could be used to make - so instead of going the narcissus route, you pull yourself away from the allure of that deceptive reflection - or even poke your finger in the water and stir it up a bit - remembering that the pleasure of the water is in touching it, smelling it, hearing it, not in examining it - and mistaking something that's there for something that it cannot ever be.
I hope you don't ever stop analyzing things - you've shared a lot of insights with me that have helped me tremendously through my own process - the difference, I suppose, is that when we start to analyze ourselves - sometimes we get so frozen in the ratiocination that we forget that the words matter more when they are part of a life being put to action. Cogito ergo sum indeed - but thinking should never become its own envelope...right?
