I don't know how I took it - I guess it was better than having to sit there & listen to how he doesn't have any feelings for me.
I have seen nothing positive from him lately. I think I'm in this for the LONG haul. I have just stopped caring how he acts. I guess I'm at least back to detaching.
He's just one weird MLCer. One that makes me feel like I am the crazy one. He has never been great w/money - so he's on par for how he's always been financially, NO EVIDENCE OF EA OR PA, acts like father of the year w/the kids, keeps the alien's emotions VERY controlled. He is able to act like everything is just fine in his life...everything except me.
I have totally given up trying to read into anything he does/says & trying to figure out if it is MLC or not. All I know is that God very clearly told me back in February that I would have answers w/in 30 days. W/in that timeframe someone brought the narcissistic family of origin to my attention. I started doubting (which I shouldn't have)...I was then lead along this trail to MLC which takes me full circle to the seeds of MLC that are planted in childhood particularly in Narcissistic FOO.
I just wish he would take off his frickin mask & erupt all the emotions from within, get them out & be over & done with this mess...
Me 36, Him 33 M 11yrs, T 15yrs S 8, D 7 ILYBINILWY - 1/09 H moves out 10/09 D to be final SOON I HOPE!
I have seen nothing positive from him lately. I think I'm in this for the LONG haul.
Prepare for the long haul, either way you can't go wrong.
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He's just one weird MLCer. One that makes me feel like I am the crazy one.
Never met one that isn't strange. lol
I can really relate to this. I felt the same way for months until I started to learned about all this. I'm positive you know that's not the case, but I'm going to remind you anyway.
This is HIS issue, just stay focused on what and who you can control.
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He is able to act like everything is just fine in his life...everything except me.
Hope, you have spoke of your positive changes....he SEES them. Don't doubt it for a second. Keep in mind, your to blame right? Of course he isn't going to let you know this. It would force him to take a good long look at himself and he just isn't ready to do that yet.
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I just wish he would take off his frickin mask & erupt all the emotions from within, get them out & be over & done with this mess...
It would be nice....but it usually doesn't work this way. Mr. M1 and I discussed this the other night. This is a slow process out, just as it was in. He will deal with his issues one at a time, look at it as peeling away layers of "old" and regrowing of new and only God knows when he will be finished.
Continue to pray and have faith. Keep improving you, life will not stop, do your best to not get stuck, forward is the key.
I'm praying for ya Hope. I'm wishing you a late Happy Birthday too!! I'm sorry, I have been a bit scatterbrained lately.( There's an underhand lob for you Mach.)
Take care of yourself and continue to be strong. Your doing great!!
H has had bad knees for awhile. They've been getting worse...MIL & I have been telling him to go to the doctor...he calls me on the way home from the doctor today (this in itself surprised me bc he acted just like my old normal H who wanted his W to know how things went)...anywho on top of lots of other info, the doc wants him to get checked for Lyme disease.
Lyme disease has been known to do weird things to a person...mood changes, etc...anyone remember Irene from Real World Seattle???? She turned into a completely different person over the course of the season. Maybe H isn't in MLC, maybe it's lyme disease & he'll take a pill & be cured?
Ok...wishful thinking...
Me 36, Him 33 M 11yrs, T 15yrs S 8, D 7 ILYBINILWY - 1/09 H moves out 10/09 D to be final SOON I HOPE!
LOL, my H has had to spend a lot of time sleeping outside on the ground in his time with the army... maybe I should have checked him for ticks when he came home too
I wish there was an easy explanation...
Although, I've had the thought - if only my H would realize he is depressed, take some ADs and be "cured"!
Me - 30, H - 32 T - 10, M - 6, D - 1 DD#1 - 4, DD#2 - 2 on/off OW 4/09 - sometime Summer 2010 (Told me about OW 4/10) Separated 6/11/09, divorced 8/4/10, trying again 9/2011
Everybody always talks about how you never forget how to ride a bike...you wanna know what else you never forget how to do? A beer bong. I did one tonight!!!! I haven't done one since I was 16 yrs old & I was a champ. Ok so maybe not the best GALing, but sure was funny!
Me 36, Him 33 M 11yrs, T 15yrs S 8, D 7 ILYBINILWY - 1/09 H moves out 10/09 D to be final SOON I HOPE!
A beer bong? I haven't seen one of those in years. No perhaps not the best galing if you were to own your own, and were hitting often or something. But hey, there isn't anything wrong with that, sounds like fun.
Dang....you just brought back some memories talking about beer bongs and poor Irene. She got smacked up by Mach's "friend" Steven.
She deserved to get smacked by Mach's friend. She threw his stuffed animal in the river!
The funny part about last night was the people there were all women in my neighborhood & I was the YOUNGEST. These ladies were all in their forties & fifties not that that is old - just old for what we were doing)!
Me 36, Him 33 M 11yrs, T 15yrs S 8, D 7 ILYBINILWY - 1/09 H moves out 10/09 D to be final SOON I HOPE!
