Sorry for the lack of updates, it has been a busy week. Our first MC/ST session was on Monday... then my sister was in town for mom's birthday... then volunteer band booster stuff later in the week.
The first session went well and we both like her and are very comfortable speaking with her. We'll be doing one each individual sessions with W this Monday and me next Monday.
I still can't explain how different we are towards one another now. I guess it's the knowing that we do really love each other and now we can show it in a real way. This marriage IS really worth saving! My writing my feelings towards her this past year I know made a big difference for me.
I wrote many things that I never gave to her. The first ones were full of anger. When I would read these later I could see the hurt and anger coming out of me. Then they started to be more loving. I came to realize I do really love her... how do I let her know about my love for her? It did really help me to change the way I thought about us and also let her know my thoughts... and learn to feel emotion again.
She even began to write notes and cards with much more feeling and meaning for us.
I know this made a difference because it came out in our session that W has known my feelings about us through my writing her.
We are doing well at the moment. I know we will have our ups and downs as we work our way through our problems together. I know this won't be easy but it will be worth it.
It did take a year but my prayers (with an angel's help ) were answered. All I ever wanted was to have a wonderful marriage with the woman I love so much. I'll try to keep you all updated as we move through this.
My writing my feelings towards her this past year I know made a big difference for me.
) were answered. All I ever wanted was to have a wonderful marriage with the woman I love so much. I'll try to keep you all updated as we move through this.
