WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[confusedinpa]

Hi CIPA,

How are you feeling lately? Do you feel like you are stronger now? Do you feel you have grown as a man and as a person?

I still check in on you from time to time. I even got a little choked up this time reading about your kids. Fingers still crossed for you man...

SF

Spellfire,

I do feel like I've grown as a man and a person. I only feel moderately stronger as I get choked up at times, but I have to remind myself that those are normal feelings to experience. The key is to remind myself don't let it way me down beyond that moment.

Even tonite, my wife called to let me know here personal credit card had gotten compromised (she got a call from her credit card company - unfortunately she found out when she tried to use it to buy groceries). So she wanted to give me a heads up to check our joint card. I am tempted to use this opportunity to close the account or at least deauthorize her as a user (I know it's dumb not to have so far).

She told me about the class she had taken (something about to help let go of emotional burden). I didn't understand it, but it sounded like she really didn't want to tell me so I didn't press it.

She wound up saying that this Sat wasn't a good idea as she is feeling a lot of stress of dealing with a new schedule with the boys and she is getting transfered to a new job/dept on Monday so she felt it was too much stress for her to deal with.

I told her that I can definitely relate.

She then brought up about how, if it takes a while to find something back in this area, that perhaps I could find a place in between (a little crazy as then I would have about a 1.25 hour commute to work each day). I thought about pressing her on her logic, but didn't really want to hear it.

Then she said that with all the stress, she's doesn't think it's a good idea to go to the comedy club on Sat as she wants to just "relax and breathe"

It had hurt when she said it, as I'm going through similar stress type events, but I do know she doesn't handle stress very well at all. In the past, I feel I would have been a wreck for days after something like that, but I'm not sure if I'm getting stronger or what, but it really doesn't drag me down that much. It hurt for sure, but I'm looking at as that will mean I will get to spend more time with my boys.

Thanks for dropping by and checking in on me. Hope things are going as good as they can go in your's. I've been trying to keep your ideal man triangle in mind all the time as I go through my life.

Take care