I really, really appreciate you taking time and stopping by to check in on me. I hope that you and your DD's are getting along very well -- you deserve every bit of joy they bring to you. And I am hopeful your life is indeed moving forward again in a positive direction after all that your xW put you through.
You're absolutely right -- we need to focus on those things we can control, and give the things we can't over to God. If it were just myself, I know for a certainty that I would have already moved on and left my xW in the past. But because of my children, I find daily there are new ways that my patience is tested -- not because of the children themselves but because of their mindlessly hate-filled and self-centered mother.
I am working very hard to make sure her constant selfishness does not bring me down. I can't stand what this is doing to my S's. I still worry about the long term effects this psychological warfare is having on them. It upsets me and I know I must keep that in check, for their sake. I ask God to relieve me of this recurring pain their mother brings on me, but I must be content with His grace alone, it would seem.
On the bright side, I think I am slowly getting better at handling this. And I know these trials have tempered me far more than I would have been otherwise. I have had to learn more patience than I ever thought possible (and I was a pretty darn patient person before all this.) I have been enduring stress levels that would have killed me in years prior. I am getting there, and I have hope.
Thanks again, Scott. And please don't be a stranger. Visit any time you like.
