I'm just going to vent because I can ... and it is a better option to do it here than for me to call her. It just feels better to get it out.
I don't understand how we go from "I want this to work out" to "I want out, full speed ahead" without any explanation. We don't really fight about anything, other than us being together. We're not even all that mad at each other. She's inventing stuff to be mad at. We like the same things. We get along. We want the same things. She moved out and doesn't even TRY to fix anything. In her more rational moments she knows this is true. She's admitted it. So rather than deal, you just leave? Really? It's all about this elusive feeling, this missing passion, which I understand. She won't DO anything without the feeling. So rather than say ... actually talk to me, call me, meet with me, she just sits there and wonders why the feeling is missing. We can't even TRY another way. Any attempts on my part to DO anything only make her more mad and frustrated. So I do nothing, she drifts away. I do anything, I push her away. I feel cheated. And mad. And frustrated. Stupid mood swings. Boo mood swings. I'll be better later. I just need to get it out.
