Trying to cope with H, IA/EA (was Newbie-1st post)

[Faith2010]

Thank you Sandi and Miska - I didn't respond and haven't heard a peep, yet.

You are wanting him to fight for you. I don't think he will. He doesn't have to. I realize you want this MR back on track, but remember that he wants what he can't have. When did he start asking you if you'd take him back? AFTER you took off last weekend! He thought he's lost you.

Sandi - I agree with you 100%. He does have to fight for me. I think he's just expecting me to say okay, good, you want me back, no problem, let's just go back to the way things were. But there is NO going back.

H started getting frisky this morning. I said no. H asks why not. I eluded to our conversations yesterday and said there would be a lot more to talk about and work on if we were going to try to make our M work. Are you guys ready for this one? H asked me if I thought withholding sex was going to do any good because if I had sex with him, it would help him feel closer to me and by NOT having sex wtih him, I am pushing him further away! WTF? I said nothing and he got nothing. I wonder if all the crap he talked about yesterday was H trying to get me to have sex again.

I did check his cell while he was in the shower (I know, no snooping but I wanted to check on his statement from yesterday about not talking to the b!tch for 2 days). OW called 3 times yesterday, leaving one voicemail. He didn't talk to OW (at least he erased that history if he did). There was a text from OW after the third time she tried him which asked if everything was ok. H texted back with a 'sorry, I was pressure washing and didn't hear the phone' (however, he had to have heard it cause he checked his voicemail the minute after she called).

I also found a text from last Friday morning from H to OW. It said "good morning babe!" and ended with "MUAH". (I've been told that MUAH means a kiss)

He's playing me. No doubt in my mind. Here I am working to save our M and now I'm having doubts he'll ever be able to be the H I need.