I feel your pain with emotion and sex. I am with you on that. But don't look at this as your last opportunity to make things right. It could be that you are in the opening run for a while. As tough as that is to hear, I'm right there with you. I don't know how long you have been at this. I know for me it has been 11 months and counting. Some people it takes years.
Keep praying and being faithful. Pray for your W. Pray for yourself. Forgive your W daily and be patient. God hears you and just because you don't see anything happening right now does not mean the wheels have not been put into motion. Sometimes God says "not yet". Things have to be right first. This is an opportunity for you to test your faith in God. Remember the book of Hosea. It took years before God restored that M. I would encourage you if you haven't already to go to www.rejoiceministries.org
There are many standers for their M and all have different lengths of time they have had to wait. But they all have faith that God will restore them. We all go through those frusturations. I am as well today. Good days and bad days. I think about the same things as you. When am I going to get to have sex with my W again. When will she have some emotion towards me. I don't have the answer to that other than in time. Remember, its not our timing, but God's timing and it will be the perfect timing when it happens. Keep your faith and trust in God. Keep your eyes on Jesus.
Think about what woudl Jesus have you do. Would he say walk away and find someone else? No. He wouldn't. Look at your W as God's daughter. How would you treat her if God was standing right there and that is his daughter. Would you remain strong and do what he asks? Would you be patient if he was standing right there?
I'm pretty sure you would. Try and visualize it from that perspective.
Just trying to be helpful. Feel free to send me an email and we can chat.
Kevin
Me 36, W 37 M: 08/02/97 D13, D9 1st Bomb 02/08 Reconciled 04/08 2nd Bomb: 09/08 W filed for D 02/04/09 Separated 03/09 D dismissed 06/09/09 Still separated...