Thanks to all of you. I've been going to AA meetings to find suppoprt for my continued sobriety (5 weeks sober as of today) and it's really nice to see the same support here for the other issue in my life - the D. I know deep down inside that this separation HAD to happen for either of us to get healthy. She has emotional issues due to her childhood too that she hasn't looked at closely (Her Grandma tried to commit suicide, her mom tried and now her only sister last spring essentially did kill her self by choosing to get so wasted she rolled her car off the road). As I'm sure you all know, this is SO hard though. I hate the things I did to our M now that I can see it so clearly from this side of the bomb.
Thanks K4D for sharing. I hesitated to mention the drinking when I first started typing, but I'm glad I did now. Honesty is something I've been hitting real hard recently. It's good to see someone else has a very similar sitch.
Gardener - I will definately check out that book. I need all the material I can read right now to keep my mind off of things.
GoingtofixME - I hear you. I tried to stay sober for her (though I didn't realize I was at the time) and it feels completly different (I guess a 180) this time. I like who I am and I'm proud that I'm sober even though I'm going through the worst time of my life.
And to all of you - if you can find a good way to escalate the whole patience thing - let me know.
