Do you know what it is like having to move back in with your father when you are 41???
Not fun...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Sorry to hear that. Hang in there. Just remember that he's only trying to help.
Me: 30 W: 28 T 8, M 6 S: 7-27-2007 W filed (again) 3-2011 Served 8-2011 Responded, now dark "I have decided to stick with love. Hate is too great a burden to bear" MLK
I know. I love my dad, and he is sweet. His wife is great. I just feel basically humiliated at having to live at home. It shouldn't last long, provided I can get a job, and find a place to live.
Actually I am kind of looking forward to that, to meeting new people, and starting to get out there a bit. I am really tired of being lonely all the time. Not that I am looking to rush into anything but I would like to get out there somehow...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Well, other than sitting here and reviewing borderline personality treatments, I am okay. My lack of patience is my biggest downfall, and I am so wishing I could find a job already. Breath...Lola breath...but I know something is coming my way. It's just a matter of waiting for it.
STBXH still has not filed paperwork although he swore he would. (Rolling eyes...) I am probably going to end up doing this myself, but since I can't do it for six months, I am not going to worry about THAT right now.
It has been good being back on the east coast though. I spent the weekend in Pennsylvania with some friends, and am headed up to upstate New York for a few days. Thank God the drives are relatively short...
In the meantime, I have spent some time at the memorial park where K is buried. It is peaceful and quiet, and I can think a lot there. I suppose I am obsessing a bit but I feel closer to him, and I miss him. But I am not crying so much anymore either, just hoping my dear brother is at peace.
Of course, I can almost feel him smacking me in the back of the head for some of the decisions I have made. (((sigh))) oh well, live and learn, pick up, get on with it. Soon I will have a nice job, little apartment, and can start over and just be me. I look forward to that...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Yeah...I have spent the last month waiting to go back to work. Unpaid vacations aren't as much fun as paid ones.
I ended up having to do all the paperwork and put a post-it on the front telling him which line to stand in at the courthouse. *rolls eyes* For being the ones in such a dam-ed hurry to get out of the M they sure their feet over actually ending it.
Glad you are enjoying being back east.
Things will come together soon!
Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2
The only thing I have to fall back on is my unemployment now. Unfortunately, on the east coast its not enough to live on. I also miss D13 tremendously, she is still in El Paso w/ her F. Part of me is really looking forward to the 7 hour drive tomorrow, the solitude of it. Just time for me. And the other part feels like there is no way I should even be going because technically I really can't afford it, and I should be chained to the computer looking for a job!!! But heck, life is short, and you never know what can happen...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
I'm sorry. 
