I definitely do find it hard. In the beginning of all this madness, I was very impatient. I had tons of backslides and I really needed the support of this site to help me through it.

You can do it though. When you change, your W will change. Right now she's in the OM fog. No telling how long she's going to be in there, so fortify your defenses and make the environment safe for her to return.

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER