Yes, BeingMe, what you say does make sens.... however, to place a series of choices leading to our destiny has me wondering what choices did I make so poorly? I've tried the best I know how, I've looked for the lessons in my experiences, as I have found some... yet, I can't understand why this cloud of negativity hasn't left my shoulders.

Sometimes I wonder if I shouldn't be out there doing things much differently, more like others who have no empathy, or sympathy for those things they have done against other..... Like my ex who seems to have the world being offered to him, and he seems not to care about the emotional scars that he has created in the lives of others.

I know, I shouldn't compare myself to anyone, but myself... but I can't help but sometimes wonder about this. I know I shouldn't expect rewards... but I did hope for fair.

I know... life isn't fair, and I need to keep this in mind too. No one said it would be, and I don't know why I want it that way.

My anxiety is building as the hearing date approaches... I have to try and stay postive.

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you.........