Things seem to really be on the up and up. My H and I couldn't have been handed anymore stress this September and although at times I backslide it is only momentary and I pull myself up and move on.
It feels so good to be healthy and to communicate to him in the right way. He is so much more open to discussion because I don't go on and on and on I say what I mean but don't say it meanly.
He is home now 6 of the 7 nights and the only thing left is to hear him say I love you which really doesn't matter in a way because the love was and is always there.
There really is nothing but love it is just that your ego mind or fault finder mind wants so much to find scrapes of evidence of bad behavoir on your spouses part so you can rag on them and feel bad about yourself.
I know that I am coming to a point where I could actually thank god for my seperation and the new life I have in front of me.
One hard thing lately is hitting our anniversary dates of when he was gone last year acting like a total weirdo. This is right around the time when he was really really deep in his crises. It is hard for me because I have flash backs of those times each time we hit a new even.
Any thought out there on how to quiet your mind when it is becoming destructive??
