As you are not doubt discovering, in Piecing, there's often confusion about backsliding vs normal bumps and actual progress! I think this was mostly the latter.
I still don't buy your H's reasoning re OW, nor do I like him laying the "problem" on you. I wonder if there isn't SOME kind of attachment still there...not an A, but guilt? Promises? I could, of course, be completely off base.
Now about this weekend anxiety...you are talking to the former QUEEN of WAD...."Weekend Affective Disorder"
No it's not a recognized disorder, but I coined the term because for YEARS I had a pattern of working toward the weekends, and then angsting out all the way through them.
Here's what my deal was...any similarities?
I suppose I always had high expectations for the weekend. I'd get irritated if we didn't make plans, if we just hung around. I'd often follow CJ's lead, which was often to watch TV...
I'd feel like I SHOULD be doing something, but couldn't quite decide WHAT...overwhelmed, antsy..."DISAPPOINTED" would have been an apt epitath should I have passed away at that time.
What happened? Well I got meds for my anxiety for one, I did a lot of introspection, I decided to start doing stuff, CJ and I go out for lunch, I like to work in the yard. Sometimes we do stuff together, sometimes not...
Not sure if this helps Opt! But I agree that building in some fun/productive activities would be a good focus. When we're idle or doing boring "usual" stuff, the negative self talk can take over.
