Cautiously Optimistic

[Done in VA]

I don't know how I took it - I guess it was better than having to sit there & listen to how he doesn't have any feelings for me.

I have seen nothing positive from him lately. I think I'm in this for the LONG haul. I have just stopped caring how he acts. I guess I'm at least back to detaching.

He's just one weird MLCer. One that makes me feel like I am the crazy one. He has never been great w/money - so he's on par for how he's always been financially, NO EVIDENCE OF EA OR PA, acts like father of the year w/the kids, keeps the alien's emotions VERY controlled. He is able to act like everything is just fine in his life...everything except me.

I have totally given up trying to read into anything he does/says & trying to figure out if it is MLC or not. All I know is that God very clearly told me back in February that I would have answers w/in 30 days. W/in that timeframe someone brought the narcissistic family of origin to my attention. I started doubting (which I shouldn't have)...I was then lead along this trail to MLC which takes me full circle to the seeds of MLC that are planted in childhood particularly in Narcissistic FOO.

I just wish he would take off his frickin mask & erupt all the emotions from within, get them out & be over & done with this mess...