d-day coming soon - help !

[misshim]

WCW,

I do like my h there with us. (of course it's stressful) IMO, he doesn't want to lose us. (not really)

H has been texting me all morning, small stuff but I do enjoy hearing from him.

It's so very hard to say no to H. He picks up our D from daycare mon, tues, friday, and then every other weekend. Funny when he was living at the house. He never would pick up our D from daycare. H works 15 minutes from daycare and gets off 2 hours earlier then me. But I would leave work, then drive 1 hr to daycare (of course driving like a crazy person)just to pickup D4 by my scheduled time)

I actually enjoy being able to take my time driving home now. But hate the whole situation.

Yes, I guess I am the doormat. But IMO, I believe that our house is a place that he feels safe and normal.

New divorce date august 1, maybe we can rebuild. Who knows.

My thinking (maybe wrong) is that I'm trying to save my marriage now. I've ignored alot about what he says and does to hurt me. After the divorce, I will be there for him however he will have to be here for me (even if only a little)

Have a good day