Newbie (again)

[dday101798]

Uhhhyvey, does it ever end?

So, while at dinner last night I caracked and texted XW as to what was going on with registering the kids for school today. Long story short I was getting nervous she was weazeling her way out of it.

We finally agreed to do it this morning versus in the afternoon.

So on the way to the school, I think I dang near had a heart attack from the stress of it all. Have no idea why I should feel stressed, this is a good thing.

So I get there just before 7 as we agreed, and after a few minutes she show up with OM driving her. Give me a break, you live 4 stinking blocks from the school, you really needed a ride?

We went in after a quick smoke and she FINALLY gave me back not only my birth records, but S11's (I think) and I do believe a copy of our M certificate, didn't really look as about ready to upchuck from the tension. OM drove off.

Registration went somewhat smooth paperwork wise. We were civil with each other the whole time otherwise. But as I was pacing around I noticed OM came back and was just sitting there in his car. After we verified we submitted everything we needed, I asked the clerk, "ok, now we're divorced and have joint parenting" [XW's face drops] "and what do I need to do as far as establishing a means of being notified of everything concerning the kids as she has residential custody?" Well, got my answers, but that seemed to strike a chord with XW once again, what don't like being D'd? Bit my tongue when the clerk was making talk and asked how our summer was goin thus far. XW put her charm face on "Good", I just shrugged and said to my self "pretty lousy seeing that I just got divorced!".

Anyway, it cam down to the finacials, looks like I'm probably eating the entire cost instead of 50/50. XW says she'll write me a check, we'll see. Plus if it has OM's name on it I'll probably burn it on sight.

Anyway we went to leave and have a smoke, as I opened the door I couldn't help but ask "so does your 'chauffer' wait for you everywhere you go?". She sort of sighed and said she told him she'd meet hime at "home". Whatever, she got atleast two text messages while we were doing the paperwork. Nice, atleast she's on a leash for once, get a taste of her own medicine.

So more of the same financial talk ensued, I mentioned I might have a solid line a part timer for the nights. Looks like the Navy won't pan out due to age and mass enrollment right now. I showed her my hands from working on my cousin's van the other day, they're pretty grusome from blisters. She said she had noticed earlier, I said, well yeah, literally working my fingers to the bone to make ends meet.

In summary with out much detail, she's broke, I'm broke. She's miserable, I'm miserable. I told her my cousin and I are getting into a real hard spot and really falling behind on things quickly and I don't know what to do anymore. She still tried to continue to one up me on everything being worse for her. I bit my tongue again and for once did not throw my usual comment of 'well, you got what you wanted'. Her expression said it all for me that she's come to the conclusion that the easy way out isn't so easy after all.

I don't know. We parted ways and that was that.

I read threw a lot of my old posts yesterday to prepare myself for this. After all the putrid, nasty, deplorable and disrespectful things this woman has done to me, there's still something there. I really wanted to go in there cheery and upbeat and put on a show, but I just couldn't do it. I don't think she deserves it. I don't need to make myself attractive to this woman anymore, she divorced me, I feel better with her knowing she's destroyed me, done exactly everything she said she wouldn't do.

And once again, her face and tone loud and clear said she knows it and is sorry.

I don't know, she has plumped back up to her 'pre-S' weight quickly.