Dad's still in ICU. Having a very hard time waking up from the anesthesia and now it looks like he may have suffered a stroke or heart damage/attack. Lots of tests being run and the nurses seem hopeful. The family is gathered together and my B comes in from PA today.
H responded to the text and said he was sorry to hear about my dad and hoped he'd be better soon. So, that was nice. My FIL called as well. Lots of support from friends.
It's incredibly hard to go through this while separated from my H. I wish he was with me, but the fact is he can't be right now. He's emotionally unavailable and so I can either lay down and give up, or stay strong and keep carrying on. I choose to be strong. My kids need me and need my strength. They deserve nothing less. It's all in God's hands and he will give me the strength and guidance I need to make good decisions.
