i wake up not knowing what the day will bring.

it bothers me, and it shouldnt, that h could even think for one minute that its me doing all of this. i mean, lets get real, why would i call and hang up repeatedly, and show my number!!!??

in a way i hope this girl keeps acting out, will giving me more of a case and he will truly see her for what she is.

i think on some level he knows what she is, he has told me in the past that i dont know what he is dealing with and that she is crazy and cant be spoken to like a normal person.

well that is his problem. not mine. and he shouldnt be with her if he can say those kind of things...

my cousin, a divorce attorney told me to tell him next time he reacts to me - he brought this trash into our lives. she is his problem, not mine. i am too busy raising a child on my own to deal with it.


me: 31
H:29
Son:5
m:8 years in november
t:10 years
first bomb: 10/06
moved home: 3/08 out again 5/08
ow bomb: 4/08, since summer 06
d filed:6/08, on hold 6/08
moved home:3/09 out again 5/09