We may have a chance after all

[optimist]

Thank you all. No, Shiny, I am not convinced about my H's answers. I think he is lying again and I suspect he has not told OW he is back home with me. I am just trying to act 'as if' and get more data before I go beserk on what I have.

He did not bring the clothes yesterday ('conveniently forgot') so I plan to drop by his office today or tomorrow and collect them. I have come to the point that I do not care how the s**t hits the fan. If he comes along fine, if not: there is the highway...

I am just so very tired... I do not understand what he is thinking and I find it very difficult to have any respect for him if it is true that he wants to be with us but does not dare stand up to OW. Sounds to whimpy to be believed to me.

I do not know. He is home all the time. Even took up the book last night nearly umprompted (I just left it on the table while he was watching TV), but did not comment on it...

I guess he is with me because it is comfortable. He has the house, the social position, the Beaver-like family... at least the appearance of a perfect life.

And I have my D...

BTW, I do not feel as bad as this sounds. I am resigned and 'plotting', not despairing