I like your talk with your H. No, it isn't ideal but nothing is much in this mess. Isn't that more willingness to talk than he has exhibited in the past?
I like the calmness you have found. I like your attitude, willing to work on it but still ok if you don't make it.
NOT there yet.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"