WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[confusedinpa]

All,

I sincerely appreciate and respect everyone for taking the time to offer their thoughts and wisdom in this crazy situation. I know all of here has equally crazy situations going on, which makes it so much more special that you are taking the time to check in on mine.

Even with this madness, the boys and I had a great day. We went to the park and played. Then we went to a baseball field and played baseball. We had lunch at McD's and they had a blast on the climber. I played video games with my 7 year old as my 3 year old took a nap. When he got up, the 3 of us made a birthday cake for me. I set out the water toys and the boys had a blast as it was a beautiful day out. I called a couple of my friends and they joined us for beer and bbq. Great day. The only thing that could have made it better was if my wife was there. She wasn't but I still had a great time.

I am heading down the path of starting the job in less than 2 weeks. I have it worked out where I will have 3 days off each weekend so I can maximize the time with my boys when I am back each week.

The only upsetting part of today was that my wife seemed set to go out on Sat, but last nite she hung out with one of her girlfriends that had started the thought of it's important to do what makes her happy, regardless of the kids. So today, she said that going out on Sat might not be a good idea. I was hurt and upset but just said it's out there so its up to you.

She did text me today happy b'day. But that was about all there was in our interaction. She did tell me yesterday that she wasn't going to be at soccer on Thurs as she had a class that she wanted to take. I told her that it's great the she's getting around to take a class so I was happy for her and left it at that.

I had up and down moments today, but do realize that I will be the best dad that I can be and my boys will appreciate that.

When I tucked my boys in tonite, they asked if mommy was going to take them tomorrow. I told them no. They both cheered "Yeah!!!" and went to bed.

It will be a better day tomorrow....

Thank you all for following my situation.