There are women that do. There is still something there. I am not saying that is what you want. I just wanted to let you know that there are women trying to work through that.
I know this hurts and I am sorry. In my situation I am glad I got Ex to get fixed so I won't have that nightmare unless he gets it reversed. I am trying very hard to make my life my own and not to worry about what he does anymore. Half of what he tries to tell me about are just lies anyway. He is toxic to me. I don't want him in my life but sadly I do need my alimony and child support to raise our 4 kids.
Focus on you and what time you do have with your kids as much as you can. They will need you to get through this.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory