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Is this enough for you? Does this make you feel secure that he is really trying to make this marriage work?



No, of course it is not enough. I want the sun, the moon and the stars... with a couple of planets into the bargain . But it is a start and a step forward. It helps me to refine my strategy and get a bit of perspective on his side of the sitch.

In all, I think our conversation yesterday was positive and productive. I still do not trust him and I am still wary, but during the talk I realized that I was fully prepared for (and even expected) him to walk out on us again AND THAT WOULD MARK THE END OF MY DILEMMA. I had this calm, confident sensation that I had nothing to lose one way or the other. Very reassuring, from my pov.

I knew then what happens when you face your deepest fear, look into the heart of your most vicious enemy and you are stronger than your fear and smarter than your enemy. The fear is gone and only cold calm remains. I wish I will never forget that sense of absolute peace (though, being human I suspect I will ).

"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little" Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"