You push, I'll pull.

[Kelly23]

I have to calm down and get a grip on myself. I have waited a year and a half for changes. They have not come. I keep hoping that H will tell me he wants to try and work at saving our marriage but evidently he does not want to save it.
I have to get over being angry at having to ask for the divorce. I know that H was never going to ask. I think the second A was trying to push me over the edge and it did. I really just HATE thinking about the conversation we must have with the kids.