What scares me the most though is that things with STBXH were like that for years before everything changed. I hope my judgment this time is better!
I think the hardest thing to handle is when we realize that judgement may not be the entire issue. People change and often there's not a damn thing we can do about it! That's what makes venturing out again a brave act. We can't predict what another will ever do...we just can't...but we reach out anyway.