well, didn't hear from W today, which is not a surprise considering yesterday.
in a way i'm kinda lost right now. i know yesterday was a huge setback, and i understand completely where i went wrong. i do want to clarify that what she was saying on the phone was different from what she texted me. it went from anger in the texts to hurt on the phone. it wasn't as bad as many here may have perceived it to be, but still was a huge backslide i know.
i know i'm fine here without her. yesterday did get to me last night tho. i feel better overall but am completely regretting what did go down.
i now know where i have to be strong with her. i can't just stand by and let her run me down. i do have respect for myself, at the time i thought i was just letting her vent.
puppy, do you really think i started back at square one because of this? maybe i am. i don't know what to think right now besides to keep living my life like i have been. it sucks to know that all that progress pretty much got thrown out the window.
sandi, if you come across this post, would you take a second and give any insights you have? it'd be much appreciated. gucci, too.
i know i have to get back on the plan, however, part of it just doesn't feel right anymore. letting her know i'm waiting here for her isn't what i'm saying, but actually have her showing interest LIKE SHE WAS where she wanted to come and spend a couple days probably should have been considered a little bit more by me and how i played it out. i should have made alternate plans on my schedule with her i think. i don't know i'm just rambling right now.
