I think you're great, too. Oh believe me, there are plenty of times when I am not strong at all.
And it is easier said than done, to let it go. He did cheat, no two ways about that. He could say he didnt all day, still doesnt make it so.
Let me tell you a little bit about my sitch. My h cheated on me. He thinks because he said he doesnt want to be married anymore out loud, that he didnt cheat. But he was still married, still in my bed, still had his ring on.
I found an explicit love poem from her. I found hotel reservations for two. He ran to meet her on our 25th wedding anniversary. I curled into a ball, it hurt so much. I was such damaged goods that I wasnt angry - I blamed myself!
So, it is healthy that you are angry. He pissed you off! He broke his vows - damn him! He sucks! Get it out.
I know some on here will tell you to let it go now. But, that isnt realistic. It's a process. Here's the thing - if you hold onto it for too long, it gets in the way of you healing, growing, moving forward.
It aint easy - this. This is hard, hard stuff. No doubt about it. It takes your breath away. It hurts down to the soul. It screws up your head and your heart and your body.
So, the sooner you get it out - the sooner you are on the road to letting it go. Because at the end of the day, if you dont, you let it win. And I could tell, you dont like to lose.
Good idea to go back to IC. Even if its twice a month, once a month - whatever you could swing.
I say all this because I wish that I had a shortcut to give you. I wish there was a way to skip these steps. But, the only way out is through - for YOU.
Worry not about h. His problems, his issues. You do the work for you and your son. And if eventually your h catches up, you will be ready for whatever is to be.
