Hey sweetie no one is responsible for your self-esteem and self-worth but you. I know that isn't what you want to hear and it is easier to blame Gabe, but he didn't take those from you.
There are so many good things about yourself but listing them off won't do one bit of good until you start looking at yourself in a different light. You can continue to be miserable because Gabe is gone or you can look at what you do have and make the most of it. Gabe, I am sorry to say, is not all that important in the grand scheme of your current life. The choices you make and the things you do everyday are what defines you now. Don't ever try to define your own self worth by the presence/or lack there of, of someone in your life.
This is your boat now. How are you going to sail it?
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory